Jeremiah means....God is Exalted

Jeremiah means....God is Exalted

Me and Jeremiah ..one month old

Photography by Jonathan Howe

The Bailey brood, L to R, Hannah Grace, Lydia

holding Jeremiah and David

Photography by Jonathan Howe

Jeremiah Wayne..one month

Photography by Jonathan Howe

First Day Home

Jeremiah Wayne Bailey

Feb. 20th, 2011

8lb. 2oz.

21in.

The Grandparents: David and Kathy Reese

Precious Baby Boy

Okay, so I realize it has been some time since I have blogged. It is now the end of March 2011 and our precious baby Jeremiah Wayne Bailey has not only arrived but is now a month old already. I do have a fairly good reason for just now blogging though :) The past month has been a dozy..hum, not sure that is a real word or spelled right if it is a word but I will go with it for the moment. Let me back track to the end of Feb. 2011...one month ago.

I was a week away from my due date, had been having contractions on and off for more than two weeks, was 3cm dilated and about 70% effaced, meaning I could go into labor at any moment really. I had my bag packed and in the van, had already arranged child care for when the moment arrived. I had planned to have a natural delivery this time around at the Lisa Ross Birthing Center, actually a water birth to be more specific. I had been practicing my breathing exercises and all that jazz and was nervous but ready for the blessed event to take place. I would give birth at the birthing center and then go home within 6 to 12 hours after Jeremiah was born. Well that was the plan. Okay we are now at Sunday Feb. 20th....plans changed...within moments really. It was around 4:15pm and I was out running errands with one of my sisters. I was heading home after I grabbed a few things from the store but decided to go ahead and get some gas in my husbands van that I was driving so he wouldn't have to do it early the next morning on his way to work. At the gas station after putting the hose in the tank, I turned to put my card and keys back in the van and tripped over the hose ( I think) and landed straight on my stomach. Long story short I ended up at hospital were they performed an emergency c-section less than two hours after I fell. It's amazing how everything you planned for can change in an instant.

This was to be my first c-section. The last four weeks have had lots of ups and downs and I certainly did not expect for my recovery to take this long. I have had a ton of help, love and support. God has been exalted in this whole ordeal. It was not a surprise to him that I was going to fall and have an emergency c-section or that I would pull a muscle at my incision site three weeks later. A week before my accident I received a phone call from my out of state Grandmother who called to pray for my labor and delivery and for the health of me and Jeremiah. Coincidence, I think not. The night before and the day of my fall I had received more prayer from various friends over my labor and delivery. God knows!! God's hand was on me and Jeremiah that day, from that very moment. Was it scary, sure it was, but I prayed the entire time. From the moment I landed on my stomach till the moment he was in my arms, I prayed. I had a host of people from my church, Harvest Church that were all praying as well. Nothing shakes God, and I can tell you I have learned many things from this unexpected delivery. For one, I do not take my health for granite, being able to do simple things, getting up on my own, being able to sleep on my side, putting my shoes on, taking a bath, yes even shaving my legs...lol, those are things I did daily without a thought. Suddenly when you cannot do those things for a time, you realize just how precious health is. I value being able to do those simple things and am looking forward to the day in the near future when I feel normal again, when I can do those simple things in a normal frame of time and not 30 to 45min :) My God, the God who holds everything in His hands, has held me the past four weeks. He is to be Exalted above all else. He is my comforter, my deliverer, my salvation. I should hopefully be blogging again soon, at least before he is a year old :)

It's a Boy!!

Okay so I realize that it has been a really long time since my last post. I blink and months have flown by. I figured that since my last post was that we found out I was pregnant with baby number four that I should probably update my blog :)
We found out on Sept. 30th that we will be having our 2nd son. His name is to Jeremiah Wayne. The first name actually came to me in a dream about 4 months before we got pregnant. It means Exalted of God. His middle name is after his daddy. Consequently it was about 4 months before we got pregnant that I found out my son David had secretly been praying for a baby brother.
The thought of having four kids can and does overwhelm me sometimes. But I remember my mom had five kids and she made it out okay. I know, I know it is by the grace of God that I too shall make it. It is by His grace that I am able to do anything. The past 5 months has been rather overwhelming at times. We started school back in July so that when Jeremiah arrives I will have a month to recoup and get into a routine again.
Rearranging rooms and trying to find space to put little Jeremiah in February has been trying but even in the midst of all of this I find myself smiling and happy at the thought of holding him in my arms. It's amazing the love that I can feel for this little life as it grows inside of me. There is a time and place for everything. As it says in Ecclesiastes 3 "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh..." At any rate you get the idea
If there is anything I have learned over the past few years it is to embrace where you are in life. By that I mean find something enjoyable in the season you are in and cherish those moments. My children are already growing up at such a fast rate that I can hardly believe it. Even on the most frustrating days it is good for me to remember that they won't be this age forever and to cherish the moments I have with them.
Something else I have learned to truly cherish....a moment of peace and quiet. Just those lovely moments in the day that are filled with well, silence. If I have errands to run alone I don't turn on the radio as soon as I jump in the van. It is those moments that it is just me, my thoughts and often my time to pray and talk to God. I cherish those moments. Having some time here and there by myself is not just a bad thing, it is those moments I often find myself looking for here lately.
Well there you have it, an update. Maybe more than I actually planned on but none the less you have it. We are a mere 17 weeks from the arrival of our newest member of the family. Hopefully I will find time to get back on here before he makes his debut.

Surprise

Well I guess the picture above says it all. Yes that's right my husband Matthew and I are expecting our 4th baby. I am still somewhat in the state of shock but somewhat excited now too. Today we announced the news to our church body. I am the 4th women to be expecting in our small church. We have two babies due in December, one in January and mine in Feb. I think I have experianced all the emotions you can have in this past week.
There is something big going on at my church, Harvest Church. We have had two teens get saved in 2 weeks and five babtisms and four ladies expecting babies. I do believe we will have more in every area. Come, now is the time of God's favor, now is the day of salvation. I will have more to share later. For now suffice it to say that God is good....All the time!

God kissed times

My husband Matt and I just got back a few days ago from a truly God kissed vacation. We went to Myrtle Beach, SC to celebrate our ten year anniversary. Each day was so relaxing and refreshing. Everything was such a blessing from the place we got to stay for such an awesome price to how great the weather was while there. Here are some pictures that highlight our time away.


Our last walk on the beach

The 1st Day we got there we headed to walk on the beach

Enjoying the night, walking on the shore

Matt holding a baby shark that this guy caught

A view from the pier

Heading to the beach

Matt having some time to play the guitar on

our balcony

A pelican that stopped by to say hi

The beach at night

Spring is Here

Picture while driving around on a Sunday afternoon

Daddy and Kids at Sunsphere

The bride to be, AKA my baby sis

Hannah looking at rocks

Daddy teaching the kids how to skip a rock

Sisters looking at rocks together

Me and the older two kids

Another picture while riding around

Spring is certaintly here. We have had some very warm sunny days here as of late in Knoxville, TN. Some days reaching into the 80's. I have found that taking moments out of my day to enjoy the simple things of life have given me a spring in my step so to speak. The picture above was one a took on a Sunday afternoon as me and my husband and kids drove around looking at the dogwood trails. There are so many things to thank the Lord for.

I come from a family of five girls...yep, that's right, all girls. I am the second of the five. Each one of my sisters holds a special place in my heart. These past few months we have been very busy as a church, two weddings only a month apart from each other. We have had one bridal shower after another, and it has been true joy. I have so enjoyed getting to be with not only my sisters by blood but my sisters in our church body. I love them all so dearly. These last few weeks we have been very busy getting ready for that 2nd wedding, the wedding of my youngest sister, Lisa. She is the youngest of the five of us girls and she is the last to get married. These are special times.

This spring like I said has been very busy but very blessed. I have friends expecting their first child, dear friends becoming grandparents, newlyweds basking in each others love and next month, my husband Matt and I will be celebrating our ten year anniversary. I feel so loved, so blessed to be a part of all of these lives. The Lord continues to draw me to Himself and I am learning more and more about the grace of the Lord. It has set me free, it continues to set me free. God's goodness is everywhere. Take joy in the moment. Remember that our strength doesn't come from ourselves but from Christ alone. I will leave you with a few photos from this month of April 2010, a month of blessing for sure.

A Shift in Thinking

Just taking a few moments to share a few things with you, sharing where God has brought me to at this point in my life. I am 31 years old and was saved at the age of 6. I am amazed that I am just now getting some of this but so grateful to the Lord that He doesn't give up on us. I am grateful that He has placed me and my family in a Church with leadership that desires to see each of us grow in our knowledge and understanding of the Lord, and to truly know the Lord. I have much on my heart and so I will try to share a little of where I am.
In the past few months I have had a shift in my thinking. As a Church we have been learning about the grace of God, operating from a place of grace. I really didn't even realize the areas of my life where I was not operating from a place of grace, but the more I heard, the more I knew that I had been missing something. I prayed, I read the Bible, but honestly it was from a place of duty, a place of I had better because that's what Christians do.
Focusing on the grace of God freed me, not from praying, not from studying His word; but from my duty bound thinking. This has been a process but just recently, in the past week I realized that my thinking had changed. Praying became a privilege to me and not a duty, not something you just do because you are a Christian. We are privilege to get to talk to our Saviour, to pour our hearts out to Him. We are privileged to get to read His word and learn of Him and how He would handle things. I am doing the same things but more often, because my thinking has changed. God is not waiting for me to do something wrong, He loves me and cares for me and yes He does discipline His children but it's from a place of love, from a place that He wants to see us grow in Him. I do not have it all together, I have not arrived by any means, but by the grace of God I will continue to grow in Him. Why do you do the things you do, is it from a since of duty or a place of privilege. May I always be teachable, may I always seek His approval and not mans.

Our Stories

I was recently talking with a friend, actually more than one friend and we were discussing how "our stories" matter. The Bible speaks of there being a time for everything. Ec 3:1 "To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven". Where we have been doesn't matter as much as where has God brought us from where we have been. Our struggles; our trials; our joys; our victories...these things have a purpose. The purpose is not reflect ourselves but to reflect the glory of God as he saw us through. What did he do for you? You may be the very encouragement someone needs today.

For me, God took a shy girl, full of insecurities and hurts and He healed me. It was a process, just like most things, but the process was well worth it. Some things the Lord did quickly in me, others took awhile. My hurts are no longer hurts but victories. If I have my eyes fixed on Jesus, I will change, because my aim is at glorifying the Lord, reflecting Him not me. When I am going through a particular hard time, I try to remember that God knows what He is doing. He knows what it is in me that has to change, He can see down the road, He knows where I am going and what it is going to take to get me there.

Just recently I had the chance to share with our youth group part of my story. My trials and struggles will become part of my story, my victories in the Lord if I keep my eyes focused on the Lord. Maybe I will share my story at least in part with you. Be encouraged, my victory is coming, your victory is coming.